Officially Submitted

We found out today that we were officially submitted to Ayudame (orphanage in Bogota) on May 14. I’m not sure why we didn’t get this information until today. It appears there has been some miscommunication. Being in this situation, where any tad bit of information is like gold, I expect to know when there are any updates to our case. Hopefully this was a fluke, and we’ll be fully informed from here on out.

Regardless, we were told our wait of 6-18 months started the day our dossier arrived in Colombia, which was on April 10. So we could have a new daughter anywhere between 3-15 months. Geez, I wish it could be narrowed down at least a bit. It would be amazing for this to happen in 2012, but for my sanity I’m tying to tell myself it will be next year. Then if it happens sooner, it will be a wonderful surprise. Easier said then done. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. We have no control over this anymore. We’ve done our part (all the paperwork and paper chasing). Now we wait, and wait, and wait. It’s an emotional roller coaster. I try to think of the positives of the lengthy process, like we’ll be able to save more money, so I’ll be able to stay home longer. We’ll have more time to learn Spanish. We can soak up this time as a precious family of three. Some days I can focus on these things. Then some days I think about our daughter being in an orphanage and just want her home with us. Then I feel super angry at all the seemingly unnecessary bs that prolongs this process. See what I mean…roller coaster.

But today I will rejoice in the fact that we have moved another step and are officially a “family waiting on a referral”. I’ve asked some questions about how the match of child and family is done. I’ll update when I get answers 🙂